Self sabotage!

I have heard alot about when others around you try to sabatage your efforts in realizing your goals but what if it's yourself?! Even though I have not begun undertaking any of my life changing, keeping New Years Day as the day I like to think of as a new chapter in my life, I am already noticing excuses creeping in about how now might not be the best time to start! Also I am smoking more than ever so it's going to make it that much harder to quit! Don't worry though I have every intention of going through these life changes. They are not just New Years resolutions to me but a new way of living my life to it's full potential! Although I'm in pain and my depression and lack of motivation often creep back into my days I no longer want to live this way! I want to be the positive person I once was full of joy and enthusiasm rather than someone I'm sure lots of people don't enjoy being around at the moment! And who can blame them?! That is all set to change though - 4 sleeps to go!