A New Year - A New Me?

Hi All and welcome to my first ever blog on my new computer! Yes I'm finally online and no longer need to use my iphone to post my entries! The only problem is I had forgotten what a terrible typist I am so may take me awhile to get into the swing of things! Sorry it has been so long since my last post. I have just been so busy with New Year all my resolutions and my sons birthday. He turned 9 yesterday! Also here in Victoria Australia it is school holidays so don't get too much time to myself at the moment! I'm actually typing this at 11:30 at night! I wonder how everyone is going with their resolutions if they have made them? I am sad to say that it is going to be an uphill battle with mine! Firstly I weighed myself for the first time in awhile and I was sad to see I am the heaviest I have ever been at 83 kilos. I wanted to put that number out there even though it is hard for me to even think it as I never, ever want to see it again! Due to my back injury I know it's going to be slow going as I really need to pace myself with the excercise or I will just be back at square one and not able to do a thing. I am happy to say that I am on my best pain management, medication wise and have not felt so good in a long time pain wise. I still have my bad days and have a low level of pain pretty much all the time but I can certainly cope with that and my doctor has explained to take my pain away completley would leave me zomie like with such strong medication needed and that of course is not what I want at all. Giving up smoking has been a huge challenge and I will admit to the world I have not completley succeeded as yet, sadly. I went 5 days completley smoke free and found it really tough but I was oh so focused and determined and all my other resolutions like a great skin care routine, drinking plenty of water and doing daily low paced excercise were all on track. Then came January the 6th! I had one of my most stressed out days and everything was just plain horrible. Nothing went to plan, I was on the verge of tears for most of the day and finally succumed and bought a small packet of cigarettes. After having one I thought well I've had one now might as well smoke for the rest of the day. These sorts of excuses are horrible and most dieters have gone through similar experiences - the whole well I've stuffed up now may as well start again on Monday approach! Don't know where I am now. My quit pack arrived today and I am going to look for some online forums for some support as I just don't feel as strong as I did on the 1st of January! Well I think I have rambled enough now and should try to get to bed soon. I hope to continue to blog a little more regularly from now on and tommorrow want to get to reading all the blogs that I have wanted to follow but was just unable to do so without a computer! So until next time...stay strong and positive and support those in need of some extra reassurance like yours trully!